insects* i've murdered

2x 'chiggers' (factually inaccurate)
fam. trombiculidae
were really two red ticks that are called 'chiggers' during larva stage**

2x gigantic cockroach
fam. blattidae
one happened at night, couldn't see well
was probably a v large beetle
second happened in my basement
was very fast, immediately thought 'fucking cucaracha'

1x mosquito 
fam. culicidae
happened mid-vampirism
thought 'you can't have my blood it's mine' in a scottish accent several times during, after

3x house centipedes 
fam. scutigeridae
'smooshed' thoroughly to prevent detached legs from crawling around post-mortem
saw the third's cricket-like hind leg trying to detach and wobble around, felt bad about taking its life i think

~10x small cockroaches 
fam. blattidae
at friend's house in baltimore while cleaning dishes
'tortured' them by pouring dishwashing solution on a goup of them, which takes ~30secs to kill them, felt consistently bad/evil while doing this

1x earwig 
fam. forficulidae
crushed w large vat of 'zipfizz' vitamin energy drink powder
happened while doing the dishes
was happy w the speed/accuracy of this kill

????x ???? 
fam. fucking everywheridae
walking around barefoot in parents' yard
walking around house while 'aloof'
walking around

2x houseflies 
fam. muscidae
one tried to drink my beer while i was at 'bukowski's' in boston w ellen kennedy
second was in the kitchen while i tried to do dishes, flew near my ear, almost slammed my head against the counter from surprise, killed with a fly swatter

1x ???? 
fam. wth ur so smallidae
nearly microscopic
caused perceptible pain while crawling on my foot, used thumb

???x fleas 
fam. pulicidae
gave dog that lives at my house a bath

1x giant ichneumon wasp
fam. ichneumonidae
captured in a 'to go' container while working at deli
gave it to a friend who is pagan as a 'peace offering' after a fight
died due to neglect/not being released

~300x flesh-flies 
fam. sacrophagidae
v large
infestation at deli
took a week+ to kill them all
felt 'helpless' mostly, they would have eaten all of the meat

3x scorpions 
fam. buthidae
happened while living in nicaragua
consistently appeared 'where expected' (hiding in a shoe, closet, behind a door that was open for a long period of time)
was never stung, though everyone else who encountered them seemed to have been
they look/act so cool, i consistently felt bad killing them, however the way peoples' bodies reacted to getting stung seemed horrifying

*factually inaccurate re subphyla, i think, 'anthropods' is more accurate, less direct
**when smooshed they leave a red 'streak', megan boyle pointed this out to me, apparently zachary german hadn't ever seen one before a few weeks ago 

i encourage people to ask questions in the comment section re my thoughts on 'murdering' small animals, i feel interested in this discussion topic