'consolidating' my internet presence

blog
http://noisandarewhatwho.blogspot.com

facebook
http://facebook.com/stephenmichaelmcdowell

formspring
http://formspring.me/steeephenmm

tumblr
http://stephenmichaelmcdowell.tumblr.com

twitter (edited)
http://twitter.com/steeephenmm

twitter (unedited)
http://twitter.com/stephenunedited

stephenmichaelmcdowell at gmail dot com

what i did july 2012

- released 'habitat. summer of blood' at a roof party at mike bushnell's house in bed-stuy
- blacked out and didn't find out what happened until it was already on the internet
- stayed ~1week at mike's with ana c., shaun gannon, peterbd, and will bechtold [+various]
- celebrated 'alienation day' and made 'the most coveted digital album known to exist'



- compiled photos from the past ~4 months into 'lit in the time of autism' photoset
- completed first draft of novella (forthcoming ~2013)
- saw 'moonrise kingdom'
- made out with girl on the white house 'ellipse' ~45min
- lied to parents about having sex with same girl
- met lucy k shaw on the internet, did an interview with her
- wrote a short story about my first gf titled 'xerox'



- talked a lot with natalie chin (this happens all months)
- made my first 'liteo'

today was the hottest day ever from Buttercup McGillicuddy on Vimeo.

- engaged in a series of 'sexts' that will eventually be published as a book

- went to richmond, virginia for the first time in my life, met walter davis
- got my first tattoo
- made 5x irl chapbooks and gave them away #rare
- made a song that is about a lot of ideas, emotions, people, titled 'sun'



- 'made it' via (what some perceive as) 'the pop serial clique-y lit oligarchy'
- got published in lucy k shaw's 'shabby doll house'

thoughts during church

can't think of an idea i dislike more than 'christian saxophone soloist,' but now that is an experience i just have to continue living through

feel convinced the 'appeal' of 'christian thought' is the desire to minimize confusion caused by the fact that dreams and hallucinations can evoke any impracticality/anxiety

feel amazed
seems barely anyone is conveying 'this is bullshit,' mostly people agreeing, clapping, yelling
seems weird

blog post

i'm mostly bored at my parents house all day

i travel to boston, new york, pennsylvania, DC, baltimore semi-regularly

to distract from boredom



two dogs live at my house

gustav and wolfgang

they are named after composers

i have footage on my dad's terabyte harddrive that i plan on making into a feature-length movie about my dogs

featuring music by the composers they are named after

but i am currently preoccupied with literary things

making chapbooks, image macros, writing a novella, maintaining my twitter




a robin built a nest behind the basketball hoop on my parents' patio

my dogs keep trying to eat the chicks

this makes the mother robin angry



i want a summer-time girlfriend

but don't want to get a job

or move much really

thoughts re 'giving [a girl] oral sex'

i enjoy giving oral sex 80% of the time

my first girlfriend didn't taste very good, but besides her, the taste of every girl i've given oral sex to, i enjoyed

the first girl i ever gave oral sex orgasmed

i enjoy how girls who like oral sex react to it

i find the taste of a girl's clit fascinating

it seems to sting, like a small electric shock or metallic orb

the only instances where i actively dislike pubic hair is when it is difficult to breathe through while giving oral sex

i like when a girl gets really wet while receiving oral sex

i like when a girl puts her hand on my head during oral sex

i like the visual aspect of a girls legs raised and toes curling when she enjoys oral sex

i dislike when it is so wet that i can't discern what's going on anymore (when there is too much of both the girl's wetness and my spit)

i dislike when it takes 5+ minutes for the girl to orgasm, because my tongue/lips get tired

i had a girlfriend who would get wet just from seeing me move my tongue up and down

i disliked this because i felt self-conscious about the visual aspect of 'moving tongue up and down', but felt good that she responded so intensely to me

i consistently enjoy or am fascinated by the smells that happen during oral sex

i dislike when a girl is not responding to oral sex but pretends like she is (i usually assume that if i can't tell if she is enjoying it, that she isn't)

i like when, after a girl orgasms, she squeezes my head with her hands and thighs

i have watched a porn that was just an instructional video about how to perform effective oral sex (if the girl is responsive to it)

i have done it ~200 times with ~8 different girls

thank you for reading