INSANE [CAREER-MARRING] DRUNK POST

I GET IT
I AM POST-BLACK
PEOPLE CAN'T GRASP THIS CONCEPT
I'M LIKE A MISSING LINK OR SOMETHING
I'M SOMETHING THAT WILL BE POPULAR IN 20~80 YEARS
I'M TOO EARLY
WHAT AM I DOING HERE
JUST THOUGHT 'GOING TO DIE IN TEN SECONDS'
I AM BLOGGING LIKE KANYE WEST
SEEMS DAMNING
SEEMS LIKE A BAD CAREER CHOICE
THOUGHT 'PEOPLE WHO BECOME FAMOUS FOR BLOGGING/CREATING "ART" DON'T EXPOSE THEIR AUDIENCE TO THIS LEVEL OF INSECURITY RE THEIR FEELINGS OF "LACK OF DEPTH" OR INADEQUACY'
[LINK 1]
JUST THOUGHT 'VICTORIA TROTT' IN A [SEEMINGLY] ENDEARING TONE
READ 'NICARAGUA' BY CLANCY MARTIN AND DEB OLIN UNFERTH AND FELT 'JOVIAL'
TREATING THIS LIKE A 'PRANK'
HONESTLY FEELS LIKE 'A PRANK' DESPITE NOT FITTING THE APPLE DICTIONARY WIDGET DEFINITION
LISTENING TO BASEMENT JAXX VS. LIGHTSPEED CHAMPION AND FEELING 'EVEN MORE' 'FUCKING' POST-BLACK
INCREASED LEVELS OF CAFFEINE AND ALCOHOL HAVE FUELED THIS
I FEEL LIKE LIL WAYNE
I FEEL LIKE SUGE NIGHT
NOT REALLY
[LINK NUMBER 2]
STILL SEEMS LIKE A PRANK
LOL, 'I GET IT'
THINKING REALLY SARCASTICALLY ABOUT THIS POST NOW
DEFINITELY A PRANK
OMG, THIS POST IS ABOUT TO GET REALLY LONG

if there were some level of destructive instinct in the genetic infrastructure behind blue whales or whale sharks the undersea ecosphere would be totally fucked

seems very important to avoid all impulses to refer to pop culture/indie culture/nihilism, though strong urges to write an extended dissertation re these concepts/themes seems [paradoxically] ‘imperative’

[LINK 3]
I WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING THAT SEEMS CONCRETE/ACADEMIC BUT FEEL INCAPABLE OF DOING THIS
SEEMS THAT THIS WHOLE BLOG POST IS STEMMING FROM THAT DESIRE
‘OH MY GOD’, WHAT IF I JUST DID THAT
JUST WROTE SOMETHING CONCRETE AND ANALYTICAL
REVISITED MY COLLEGIATE WRITING TACTICS AND ‘JUST DID IT’
SEEMS TIRING TO TRY TO DECIDE ON A THEME/TOPIC RE ‘SOMETHING CONCRETE AND ANALYTICAL’
SO BORED OF THIS BLOG POST NOW
GODDAMNIT